I am entering this week in full gear but so ready to tackle new opportunities! About 2 weeks ago I decided to walk away from my job that was no longer serving purpose in my life. It was exactly that, a job. I am so not one to just drop everything and have the “fuck it” mentality but this had been weighing on me for some time. Pretty much since I started but continued to get progressively worse every month. Then it came for a year to hit and I realized I was not happy nor was I getting smarter going to work everyday. Every WORST possibility went through my head- what if I don’t find a job? What are people going to think? How can I just quit? CAN I just quit?! Needless to say, after weeks of deliberating I made the decision that I was going to get out of this crazy environment that I was surrounded by daily.
You never really realize how toxic something can be until you either take a slight break or come to your senses and say you’re not dealing with this crazy shit any longer. Long story long (that’s a joke) there was someone in particular that did not have my best intention from day one. Silly me, I am so the type to see all the signs and still try to give people the benefit of the doubt. This ranged from talking down to me constantly to just really not liking me and making it apparent for everyone to see. Luckily, I read so much and am a sucker for positive living- that I am literally trained on this which leads to spotting insecurity a mile away. I always encouraged and tried to make things seem better than they were but finally my inner self was like, SARAH!!!! It’s time to get OUT! There is no reason for anyone to let negativity be a part of your daily life. This is not to say that it is never going to exist or you won’t ever engage with people who have a problem with you from time to time but when you know that you gave it your best shot there is no reason to feel bad for making a decision to move forward. I have never felt more relieved that I don’t have to see this person ever again (hopefully) haha and if I do I will know that I made the right choice. It’s not always easy to walk away or demand better for yourself but I think we at some point we ALL reach that wit’s end and are then forced to make a decision.
So now, 2 weeks later, I have enjoyed every minute of having time to myself. I have worked out everyday, sometimes twice and I am really trying to focus on what it is that I want. After this situation I surely know what I don’t want. The lesson in itself is don’t be rude and don’t be an asshole to people. Your behavior everyday is a direct reflection of how you feel inside. I couldn’t be happier……like SO FREAKING happy!!!! Life always works out. I am in control and will continue to honor myself while growing and realizing more about who I am and what I want. Things don’t always have to be perfect. In fact, when they are not is when you end up learning the most. I hope if any of you are in a trying situation you really focus on finding the strength (and diving into the strengths you already possess) to realize YOU ARE BETTER!!!! Set an intention and then tackle it! Learn that failure is only a step in the right direction.
Goodbye comfort zone. Hello New Opportunity that awaits! xo Sarah